Wednesday, March 20, 2013

sometimes life just happens

"Life is what you make it," just saying it to myself makes my head hurt because the truth is, it rarely turns out the way you would like....there is always that curve. I decided to write this blog because it is a therapeutic way for me to cope with the occasional curve balls that have been thrown my way; and hopefully give someone else reading some hope and or inspiration. I am always open to any questions that you may have as time goes on so feel free to ask away. 
There comes that time in life when you sit back and say.....Yes!!!! I finally got it right, then comes the basketball player from the Geico commercial telling you, no, no, no, not today. I am 32 years old and for about 46% of my life I have struggled. Whether it was with myself as a person, with family, with school, with my own children, basically with everything. I honestly feel like I have two separate brains and they constantly play tug-of-war with each other and then the ropes breaks in the middle and no side wins. A couple days ago I was to by my doctor that I have a condition that my bones degenerate and right now at this moment my 90 year old hands are typing away on my keyboard. 
I must say I was at a lost for words because here I am one day just minding my business and all of a sudden I get pain out of no where shooting up and down my hand. I disregarded it because I thought it was just one of those passing showers....nope joke was on me....its a hurricane and he or she is here to stay. Bottom line is that they can not pin point the cause of what is going on but I have already given them so much blood they could start a blood bank. I am tired of the test and poking and prognosis and nothing...not to mention my career is in jeopardy because I wont be able to properly serve my country. What is a girl to do????